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Externally, you can see me strong, tough, can withstand all the obstacles that life can bring. I have a golden armor that I use when I go to battle. I am a valiant general always prevailing and conquering. This is me OUTSIDE…..

Internally, a battle always wages inside me. A battle over depression, hate, fear a battle that is running in my thoughts and in my heart and also even in my Spirit.This is me INSIDE…….

Love is the most magnificent feeling 1 person would ever experience. It makes a person happy, so much happy. It makes you sing, it makes you laugh, it makes you motivated and inspired… It makes you alive!

Love is also the most menacing feeling that you will ever experience. It makes you sad, it makes you tremble, it makes you so disturbed and irritated. A feeling of self pity. A feeling of embarrassment, a feeling of anger……a feeling of death!

I don’t know what I am right now. I’m like a person with two faces.. NO, I am person who is hiding in a mask. A person who is pretending to be strong, but I am not. A person pretending to be happy, but in reality..sad, a person who can withstand all odds, but a weakling. I am pretending to be ok but inside me, I am not.

Inside me, I don’t have a heart now. My heart is crushed, scattered to million pieces, its color is not red and full of blood but is colored BLACK. I have no strength to love someone now for I have given my all but in return, NOTHING. Only despair, only sadness, hurt, betrayal. I cannot trust anyone for the trust  in me is gone. I have given all my trust, I have given all my love, I have given my ALL..

I have nothing now… I am nothing…. I am just pretending to have a lot but I have nothing…….

BAKIT BA DI AKO MAKA GET OVER SYO! UP TO NOW GANITO PA DIN ANG FEELINGS KO FOR YOU! PILIT KONG ITINATAGO, PILIT KONG KINAKALIMUTAN KA PERO GANUN PA DIN. ITS BEEN ALMOST 1 MONTH NOW. 1 MONTH OF AGONY, 1 MONTH OF SORROW, 1 MONTH OF PAIN…… PANGGAP LANG AKO NA MALAKAS AKO PERO DEEP WITHIN ME, SO MUCH HURT AKO…… GRABE PALA YUNG SAKIT PAG NAGMAHAL KA NG HUSTO PERO PAGDATING SA DULO IIWANAN KA DIN…… ITS KILLING ME INSIDE OUT….. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO, I DONT KNOW HOW TO CURE THIS PAIN…… I FEEL TERRIBLE…… AHHHHHHH……. DAMN! I HATE WHAT IM FEELING!… SANA PATAY NA LANG AKO PARA DI KO MARAMDAMAN TONG NARARAMDAMAN KO NGAYON. SANA I’M DEAD….. GANUN DIN NAMAN EH KASI EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE, IM DYING……….

(Source: aysayako)

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(Source: immawesomeness)